chocolate for breakfast

i am flawed and i don't care. this is my flaw and this is my apathy. if my needs are not met after a certain time i look elsewhere to have those needs met. unconsciously you see, because i am masochistic my nature, not intention, but sometimes intentional because that's just how my dna has preordained things to be.

and that was a mouth full.

not like last time....

i am not blind to feelings like others are. i try, i see, i move on [unfortunately].

but i wish i weren't like this sometimes.