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oct 03, 2001 10:47 a.m. inside my mind i'm waiting for the burnout. it's coming, i know it is. i feel like some sort of sick psychopath because i'm actually looking forward to it. i always feel so differently from others just for the fact that i embrace the negatives and discard the positives. what kind of person does that make me? i mean, really, when you think about it, what kind of fucked up person does that make me? sighs. why am i so masochistic. i am living, i am living, i am living. screw this shit, i am not. this isn't living. this is functioning due to requirement. requirements i impose on myself. ... the past and future are non-existent. only now is real. i need to rememeber that. |