a suicide note

i'm hoping

that when i die

you will cry

cry till your eyes are red with sorrow

and miss me like you should have when i was alive

i want you to remember me

and what we were

and weren't

i want you to think on how i acted like i didn't care [but did]

and how you acted like you did [but didn't]

i want you to think of all of this

and then forget it

please, do this

if only for me

that way i would have been right

and killing myself right now

would not be in vain