What is it really you're crying about?

Uncertain. Similar but familiar. Repeat repeat (patterns). Why. Stupid. Be kind to yourself though. Self-hatred only makes it worse. Tears. Sadness. Self-doubt. But don't. You've worked too hard. Why again. Why again. Why again. Patterns. I thought I'd healed. WHY. I'm waiting to understand the point. Smile. Smile. While. You're dying on the inside. Slowly. But you always turn it around. You always do. Because in the end. YOU are all that's there. It's not lonely, it's just truth. And it's time to stop lying.