we all have our moments

occupy your thoughts.. distract yourself with anything. it's like turning up the music to drown out your thoughts; an escape, because we know how much i love to run. i am NOT confrontational. i am insecure. i am nothing. THIS is everything, though. i'm not dissociating, i'm reveling in it, don't you see? i'm just exerting the energy towards something i see as productive, channeling my aggressive emotion that i can't seem to handle into something of use.

my own self-therapy, my own salvation, my own despair.

gun to the head
no bullet,
not dead.