this never ends

stuck in this rut of self-loathing. stuck in the thinking that i'm stuck in this thinking.

forever. forever, she says, when time is only a notion that the mind creates due to change. constant. continuous. containing. contained. EXPRESSED (!!!)

release this rage. a slow simmer of bottled up fury. why am i so goddamn ANGRY(???)

torment. self-torment with self-induced depression as my fix. feels so good to feel something so real even if it is so fucking fake.

sighs.

self-improvement is a bitch, and so am i, so go fuck yourself like you have before, while i sit in my puddle of self-made anguish.

it feels better than you, at least.