letter VI

she sees them both. it's not the obvious one she's concentrating on, though. it's the silent one with those terribly intense eyes and dark face. somehow, she thinks he knows her secret intentions. and somehow, she thinks he knows she's watching his every move.

just like the past, i find myself sitting next to you. i am careful this time, though. i will not raise my eyes. i will not falter. you will not see the feeling in my eyes - the aching, the longing. you are everything i don't want, yet why do i strive so hard to obtain...? i don't know. maybe i never will.

in her mind, she thinks they'll never be together. but still she looks. still she hopes.