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dec 29, 2001 8:17 a.m.

coping

it's amazing the things you'll find yourself doing when you feel you owe someone something.

then when you look back at your life you'll see your actions and feel the guilt spawned from those actions.

or perhaps you might numb yourself to your own feelings.

block them

deny them

repress them

anything to make the hurt subside, because there is so much hurt. people are instilled with defense mechanisms within them just to cope with everyday life - pain.

some handle pain better than others. and some just look like they do. the truth of the matter is we all pain and ache and cry and wish we were dead sometime in our lives.

it's just your method of dealing with the pain that determines how well you function with it.

sometimes i don't feel like i'm functioning at all.

deep down, i know i'm not.

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