something

it's sad how i strive for a small quantity of something to feel a large quantity of something inside.

it's sad how when i get that small quantity of something i get more than i bargained for. i get more than i expected...more than i can handle.

it ends up turning that big quantity of something into something small and non-positive.

so i strive no longer.

that something is now replaced with a horrible emptiness inside. the emptiness of regret and the pain of not being able to tell you the real truth of it all.

and the pain of my heart breaking.

but you'll never know, because i'll never let you see.

the unfamiliar tears.

no one sees.