i'm trying

i am not that bad of a person.

i fucked things up. i know that. i'm trying to make up for it now. i'm killing myself just trying. it's eating me alive. the guilt. it always does. no more blocking. i'll feel. i do feel. and it hurts.

this hurts.

i'm waiting. that's the worst. i'm trying to make things right again.

this hurts too much.

i am not that bad of a person...