she left

ugh..another mistake.

i seem to be full of them lately.

i noticed something about guys today. they can throw whatever sharp, dangerous, and/or toxic objects at each other, feel a considerable amount of physical pain, and still call it "fun".

am i the only one that sees something wrong here?

i was also made aware of the fact that male teens and fire do not mix. burn after another, and they still continue to screw with it. idiots. not to mention the fact that adults were near the premises while these things were happening.

it still amazes me how some people can be so oblivious to their surroundings.

and the fact that i stayed there, as an unwilling accomplice, goes to show how much wits i have about me.

so you see, i'm just as bad as those i condemn.

after these occurences were played out, i zoned out on metallica at the park. i actually enjoyed some of their old music. scary.

people said i looked tired today. maybe i was.

they also said i looked depressed. i know i was.

i found out something concerning my mother a little while ago. you could call it a shock of sorts. it seems her current residence is somewhere in france now. no more florida. she moved away. i don't even know how long she's lived in france. she didn't bother to tell me i guess.

i haven't talked to my mom since january.

she sent me a "thinking of you" card about 1 or 2 months ago. i think it's a beautiful thing when your mom cares enough to send you a card after showing absolutely no interest in you at all in the last previous months. really.

i also love the details she wrote inside the card.

"love you, mom"

i'm sure alot of thought went into that.

i'm touched.

oh, and mom, if you're reading this, send me a postcard sometime.

maybe i'll read it.