me <--- anti-social

i am in a very anti-social mood right now.

the menial faith i ever had in the human race is slowly withering away to nothing.

i guess it was bound to happen sometime.

me, being included in the human race catergory, is by no means excluded from these sentiments.

i've come to the conclusion that my behavior as of late has become self-destructive, masochistic, and above all, unhealthy.

i'm killing myself.

and in the process, ending up very miserable.

what to do, what to do...

i know it will be hard to rectify the damage i've caused. i know it will be near impossible to rectify the damage others have caused.

if people only knew how one word, one action, one thought, could affect someone so deeply... i'm sure they would think more about how they react to their surroundings.

wouldn't they?

or am i the only one that cares...

i find it incomprehensible how certain people can go around in this world so selfish, conceited, and hateful towards other human beings. what could have happened to these people to make them that way? what happened to me that made me how i am? why can't it all be changed...?

sighs.

just more questions to which i have absolutely no clue as how to answer.

i need a change of scenery before i go in to complete destructive mode.

or maybe it's too late.