guilt

i don't know what to say.

for once i am at a loss for words.

the intent which i mean things to happen never happen the way i want or plan.

of course not. that would make life too easy.

so now i have to live with the consequences of my behavior. and i accept that. i should have known better. but the thing is, how could i have? i've never been in this situation. well, i have...but i made different choices. and i guess those were better than the choices i made this time.

i don't know.

all i have is the guilt which has always eaten at me. this is just yet another continuation of that usual occurence.

there is only one question left.

what happens now?